Thursday, July 24th, 2008
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6:33 pm - im worried
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So about 9 months ago i had to give my great dane phillipe away. the lady i gave him to had other deaf great danes like him and though he would have a great home there. She also has allowed me to visit whenever i want. He has always had a weight problem since i rescued him due to worms. over the first few months he has been gaining slowly but surely. when i visited him in june with my mom i noticed he was getting a little bit thinner. then when i visited him on sunday he look emaciated,. part of me feels like its her neglecting him and hope its that and not something like cancer. if she hasnt taken him to the vet since i made my observations and worries known i hope she will let me take him to my vet and hopefully let me take him back.
current mood:  worried
current music: radio
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Wednesday, April 2nd, 2008
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11:45 am - sometimes
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i wish money just didnt exist...
current mood:  aggravated
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Tuesday, February 12th, 2008
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6:27 pm - i love how...
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I love how i had to come to work today when it took one hour to get there and work one hour with no customers :-) life is fun
current mood: aggravated
current music: nbc10 news
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Wednesday, September 19th, 2007
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6:43 pm - The hardest thing i have ever done
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I had to give my puppy away yesturday. Over the weekend I had come to terms with the fact that with my schedule I am unable to give him the love, attention, and freedom from the cage that he deserves. I gave him to a home of a woman who has 3 great danes 2 of which are deaf like him. she has a granddaughter who wants him to sleep in her room, a big back yard, and free roam of the house. I know that this is the best thing for him but, I miss him so much. He is my big baby and i will always love. I even started crying at work today. Even though i do have open visitation i just miss having him around. i couldnt even sleep in my own home last night because of all this.
on a better note: i did get tickets to see stars and the new pornographers!
current mood:  sad
current music: xpn
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Monday, July 30th, 2007
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6:37 pm - Whistle for the Choir
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I just got the new Fratellis album and the inside cover was right,"thank fuck for the fratellis" really awesome stuff! I now am going to see a few concerts this fall! im seeing: of montreal, iron and wine, and rilo kiley. if i can I am also going to see stars and the new pornographers<3.
i am a little pissed off at a certain friend because she promises things and then when it comes time to do them they never happen. its not that i completely mind its just that i have so many things i have to do and i make time around my other plans to do soemthing with her and its just frustrating. Gah! i really think i am starting to hate people.
Im starting to stir up some ideas for my next tattoo because I am going through needle withdraw! all i know is that i want it to have something to do with music. something will come to me i know! im so bored right now at work. i think on mondays we should close at 6 not 7 because they waste more money on electricity staying open because there are no customers! I hope lindsey gets back to me and can come over and watch a movie or something. oy i think i need a drink >.
current mood:  stressed
current music: the fratellis
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Wednesday, July 11th, 2007
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4:57 pm - baby snakes!
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I got a puppy! even though people say he is a horse, i think he is a puppy! His name is Phillip a great dane that i rescued over the weekend! The shelter he was in was going to put him to sleep because he was deaf and i just wouldnt stand for it. he is very sweet and has a great temperment. i am thinking about putting him in another home but i doubt that i will be able to because we are already bonded. well that is all umm..... yea thats it!
current mood:  chipper
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Monday, June 25th, 2007
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3:30 pm - wow its been a while
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So yea i haven't posted since april im sucha slaker! well some stuff has happened since then. ragtime is over woohoo! but i have made some great friends because of it. and unlike every other show i have been in we all stay in touch and see eachother ever tuesday for $1.50 magaritas at charlie browns. i finally got my own place and so did my friends jackie and steve! it gets a little lonely but as long as i know that i have friends who care and lots of books im good. the summer season has finally started and i have already been to the beach, gotten sunburn, and eaten boardwalk pizza. my friend teddy's girlfriend threw him a surprise birthday party this weekend and it was great.umm my heart is torn between two people and i am frustrated at my mother.
other then what i have stated i am all fresh out of things to write about. so, there ya have it!
current mood: chipper
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Monday, April 9th, 2007
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6:58 pm
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because one of the tellers called out due to her vacation in florida, i have to work 6 days this week because the other part timer is on a well deserved vacation. i mean yes it is over time but still, i have school and rehearsal ontop of it. im going to kill somebody. so mon-sat i will be here and i think they should pay me some gas money especailly tomorrow. this is why : home to school 14 miles school to work 21 miles then work back to school 21 miles and then school to home 14 miles. thats 70 miles in one day holy hell!
passover sucked! I went to a seder that was nasty the brisket was dry and the matzo balls where like bricks. and oddly enough they didnt have any Charoset!! wtf! any who that is all of my ranting for today i guess.
oh i saw blades of glory and it was really funny! go see it!
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Monday, April 2nd, 2007
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4:18 pm
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It's been a while since I have posted but all I can truely say is, I need a vacation.
current mood:  tired
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Wednesday, March 21st, 2007
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10:47 am - You can never leave me alone for too long.
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Yesterday i didnt have rehearsal so i basically had the whole afternoon and evening to myself. This wasnt a good thing. Most of the plans I had made fell through and i had to go tire shopping with my mom. of course, after constant arguing about the differences in pricing of a good year and a firestone my mom treated me like shit and so did my brother. I had finally talked to my friend April that afternoon and she pointed somethings out to me. One of those things was the fact that i dont spend enough time alone. The other i will get into later. So last night i was supposed to go to chris' jazz cafe with two friends. one bailed and the other said she didnt feel like going all the way to philly, so we were to meet at the diner. When this plan was made all hell broke loose in my mind. I thought about all the shit certain friends have been doing to me with certian promises that were never kept and the feeling of being used (this was the other thing april pointed out), how i never really wanted to do ragtime but i felt forced into it, my love life sucks and everyone around me is in a good relationship, and how my one friend ruined my going to chris' the week before due to things i dont want to get into ( even though a lot of it i believe was laziness and not caring even though i had put her first so many times before so to make her happy when i didnt have to) and that last night was my final chance to go to chris' before ragtime completely consumed me. I broke, it was enough. I had a anxiety attack. i was given too much time by myself to think about things, instead of being out and about and filling my head with mental blockers. I completely freaked.
You can never leave me alone for too long. the outcome is never good.
current mood:  groggy
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Monday, March 12th, 2007
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12:44 pm - Birthday blues
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My birhtday was yesturday and everything was fine except for the fact that i was sick and a few of my friends couldnt go. Something good that did happen was this: Timmy Ky's boyfriend didnt think he would be able to go due to not having a car. Ky was devistated as was I that he couldnt come. But, i was able to talk to him on the phone and I picked him up and brought him to the party as a surprise for Kylene. It was soo cute! Her face glowed the minute i rolled downt he back window and he appeared. it was awesome!
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Wednesday, March 7th, 2007
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2:59 pm - why
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Monday, March 5th, 2007
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10:54 am - yup
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It was a sign of bad things to come. Friday did go well though, he hung out with me and Kylene and everything went smoothly. Then saturday came. He came with Tina, Puche, and myself to ikea so tina and i can get some ideas for moving out. Everything was fine until we started having fun with it. At some points i did understand the embarrassment. But at other points he could of had fun with us. He basically did treat my friends like shit, and treating my firends like shit is like treating me like shit.It feels like he is also judging me based on one day. Paul seems like the kind of person who also cant tell the difference between immaturity and just relaxing and having fun. He has truely become a hypocrite when it comes to all of the beliefs he would talk about. He doesnt practice what he preaches and all he does is talk about himself. He ignored me all day Sunday although i did try to apologize and wanted to ask him if there was anything he wanted to do that day just the two of us. But alas he didnt reply which i guess is good because that is his loss. I have really been thinking about it though and I have come to this conclusion: I could never date him. I cannot have feelings for someone who truly does act like a hypocritical conceded prick.
current mood:  relieved
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Friday, March 2nd, 2007
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12:57 pm - I never win
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Today at 11:11 am I made a wish that I do see Paul tonight. Although he said that he did want to do something this evening I really dont know. I mean we have talked every day this week and yesturday we didnt. Maybe its a sign of bad things to come or maybe i am just over reacting. I hope i am just over reacting I really do. Well, we shall see i guess. :-/
current mood: anxious
current music: radio
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Monday, February 26th, 2007
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11:42 am
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I think I have found him. We went to Barnes and Noble and drove around for a few hours. We even were singing to music in the car. It was amazing! I hope this turns into something great. I really do!
current mood:  hopeful
current music: radio
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Saturday, February 24th, 2007
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1:48 pm - Ass to mouth. Literally...
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My boss' breathe smells like he went ass and kept it there. I am seriously going to be sick. the sad part is is that i cant say anything to him because i will be fired. He has no manners what so ever! last night i was trying to eat my dinner that i spent $8 on and he came in the back and wouldnt stop releasing gas! i dont care if you burp once or twice but this was numerous times with out saying excuse me. it wasnt like we were buddies or anything either! i ended up throwing away my dinner and not eating. which is fine i guess but geez, bodily functions dont usually annoy me. but yesturday and today it just went way too far!!
k i feel better now! ^.^
current mood: aggravated
current music: who's next the who
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Wednesday, February 21st, 2007
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4:06 pm - Wow
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I have not been on this site in 4 months or more. A lot has gone down since then too. I no longer work at papa johns. I worked at a ob-gyn office and hated it. Now im at a bank thats a little far from my house but for $10.50 per hour to start I really cant complain. I have been on a couple dates since then but nothing really spectacular; although i have a few people at the moment that are very good candidates. My relationship with my friend zac is completely topsy turvy, and i still dont know if its a good or a bad thing yet. I was in the professional childrens play sleep hollow which had more drama in the cast then in the show. Im now in the musical ragtime and its meh so far. School is ok as usual. The summer is going to be great!!! There is going to be a trip to canada with kyky,timmy, api, and maybe tina. we are going for five days and getting me a bunch of toronto maple leafs attire! I havent been working to much on my music and i feel like shit because of it. I never seem to have time to just relax and pick up my bass anymore. one more year and i can drink!!! woo hooo!!!!! hopefully this summer i will also be moving out of my house as well as this aweful body of mine (more details on that when it comes.) though, that is mostlikely why i am going to be extra hesitant about starting a relationship with someone. Mainly because men can only think with one head at a time, but mostly because i dont want people to think differently of me and only like me because of the state i will be in. anywho, it was good playing catch up. i will be on here more often.
I promise ^.^
current mood: chipper
current music: What ever is on the raido at work.
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Sunday, October 1st, 2006
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11:58 pm - wee hoo!
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I made $98 today in tips. Havent made great tips like that on a sunday in god knows how long! I would like to thank my good luck charm of the evening ( you know who you are) for making me say where the good tippers are and getting it! Score!
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Wednesday, September 27th, 2006
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9:56 pm - ballz
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Saturday, December 17th, 2005
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12:55 am - Mood
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Imagine this ...
Buying a gag gift for my bestfriend at Mood on south street. While browsing I picked up a funny big blue object*,then while trying to put it down without it falling over it does and knocks over a whole shelf of pink big funny objects*>0
current mood:  embarrassed
current music: Frengers by Mew
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